Thursday, January 18, 2007

Depressed

I know I shldn't feel this way. Unfortunately, I feel inadequate. It has been a long long while since I had this sort of mood hit me (no, it's not PMS). I wonder what's wrong...it seems tt nothing I do is ever gd enuff. I m not as quick as I will like myself to be, as likeable as I want to believe I am, as happy as I try to project myself to be.

Is work stress getting to me? The numbers r really mind-boggling and the concepts/ terminology used abstract to say the least.

I dun hv as much free time as I prefer, not as healthy as I want to be, not as trendy/ mature as I shld b etc. Everything just sorta stacks up, and *bang* I hv fallen into such a mood. I shldn't...I shld pray more. But I dun wanna bcum a person who only seeks God whenever I need help.

Contradiction..life is really a web of contradictions. I hope I will get over this asap. I just wanna regain my footing/ comfort at work, peace in my heart and happiness in life.