Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Lunch at Saint Pierre

As I was one of the top 3 for a competition held at the workplace, we were treated to lunch at Saint Pierre, Central Mall today. Had a close to 3 hrs lunch!!

For starters, I had foie gras w stewed apple. Main course - beef. Dessert - Grandmother's chocolate cake. Don't let the simple-sounding names mislead u...the food was simply superb! French cuisine is really delicious, although the portions were really small.

Although the food was gd, it wld hv been better if I did not hv to complete a presentation and make small talk over lunch. It was pretty stressful as these were big shots, and I was the smallest fry at the table. Youngest, shortest tenure, shortest in height, least experienced, I can go on..but u get the idea.

In any case, it's gd exposure definitely. I felt tt the french cheese was really smelly though. The tray was only beside me and I had to stop breathing alr, can't imagine if I had to put into my mouth.

The ang moh waiter was really shuai! As in really shuai! He seems almost perfect to me...gd body as well. My sis said he must b gay..hahah...

Too bad I could't take any photos. It's really an eye-opener. N to hv such an experience just 2 mths into the new job...I m happy as a lark! At least I am assured of getting the 3rd prize...hahah...

This is actually not very amusing. I actually worked till 10.30pm today, reached home only around 11pm! I can't imagine if this continues indefinitely. Anybody will be drained of energy. I feel stupid and slow almost all the time, so u can just imagine the amt and concept of the work that is involved. =(

Oh well, I am young only once. Though I won't sell my life to work, I shld make full use of my youth to create a future for myself. So therefore, I shan't keep thinking about how nice it is to go hm at 6pm sharp. After all, once I understand all the concepts (I give myself another 4 mths), it shld be easier.

Urnice, aza! I can do it! Ba-sha!

I have finished watching My Girl! 16 episodes in all in 7 days. Watched approx 1-3 episodes per day, starting from around 11pm (cos I hv to work till at least 8pm EVERY night -_-) till 1-2am, then going to work at the usual 8.30am. This was my routine the whole of last week. Amazing that I somehow survived thru with less than 6hrs of sleep per night.

In any case, let me highly recommend the show My Girl. Although at times draggy and unrealistic, the show is nevetheless gd, not least due to the superbly likeable main actress and shuai actor.

Frankly, I don't understand the Korean way of thinking. In Autumn in My Heart, why can't the brother and fake sister be together, even though they hv grown up as siblings in the past? After all, they aren't real siblings. Is it so hard for the parents to accept? Shldn't they even b happier, since there wun be much difference after they get married? Similarly in My Girl, why can't the grandfather accept that his grandson wants to b tog w the fake granddaughter? After all, tis time, they didn't even live tog from young. Is it so hard to accept, when the lie was told as a white one? Y can't he hv the will to continue living if they are tog? So stubborn until the grandson gives the ultimatum that he will leave hm...tsk tsk.

But I digress (pt being the Korean society has their own way of thinking). The actress was extremely likeable and appeals greatly to me. Yes, she was a liar, but her antics were entertaining. I can see why all the actors preferred her over the international tennis star. To be her true self and in the process, attracting so many suitors. How brave she was, despite feeling deep anguish, she still masked her true feelings on the outside.

In a sense, we all luv to see ourselves in the character portrayed. It's our dream to live such a fairytale life, or to prosper despite the odds. That's y I like to watch such shows rite? For luv to manifest despite not being very likeable to the common people/society.

Oh well, there's hope since shows mirror life (xi ru ren shen). Haha..=)

Using the actress's favourite phrases, all of us must do well! Ba-sha! Ba-sha! Yes, we must A-za! Aza! (means jia you!) All of us hui wan fu de! (All of you will be blessed!)

Apocalypto - a movie name that I don't know how to pronounce. Much as I thought I wun like it, I am surprised to announce that I actually think it's a gd movie. Yes, it's (very) gruesome, but the bottom line - the strength of the human spirit shines through.

I admit I wasn't enthusiastic cos the movie is directed by Mel Gibson and his reputation (good or bad) precedes his name. Furthermore, the tribes, setting and the foreign language made everything seemed scary. I thought tt I would be bored. How wrong I was!

Apart from the fact tt the scenes in which blood was shed were more than raining scenes, there were also 1. Cutting into the body, then digging out the heart from the (living) men; 2. Beheading of the men whose heart was just dug out; 3. Using the captives as targets for a shooting game; 4. Gently slitting the throats of men, whose blood will then slowly flow down their bodies like a waterfall and finally 5. Gentle spray of blood splurting out of the side forehead of a man whose head was just hit by a club. All in all, the slaying of the animal in the 1st scene was just the appetiser for the blood shed that was to follow.

However, despite the above, I still like the show! *gasp* No, I have not become blood-thirsty, but the show appeals cos the lead actor did not allow his thinking to get the better of him. Instead, he stared defiantly (and used his brains) at his enemies. With abit of Mother Luck on his side, he managed to defeat the enemies. The sheer determination, bravery and the will to live are all characteristics that I want to have.

Man only fails when we give up at the slightest sign of defeat. We should keep trying, keep going and be like a bull. If the defeat gets to us, we fail even b4 we lose in reality. It is a battle within ourselves, to convince ourselves that we can do it. Our mind is a lethal weapon that can make or break us. So why not choose make, instead of thinking failure?

This week has been pure madness. Worked till 8pm on ave, n tonite I clocked my latest timing since joining the present company. Past 10pm!

Along with the fact tt I hv been keenly catching My Girl till the unearthly hour of 1-2am every nite, it has made me a very tired girl indeed. A tired, but satisfied girl.

It's funny, but I find it a thrill when I am finally able to reconcile the numbers, and make sense of them. Remind me tt i ever said this when such late nites continue for too long...=P

The only reason I can think of for buying 8 tops and 1 pair of shoes over the weekend is for the upcoming Chinese New Year. Everywhere I go, I am hearing Cai Shen Dao, Gong Xi Gong Xi songs being blasted over the PA system. So yes, the festive mood is really in the air. Hvn't had a chance to venture to supermarkets yet, so did not get pineapple tarts, loveletters n other festive goodies thrust into my face, to 'try 1st then buy'.

Along w CNY, there is bound to b fortune-reading for the upcoming year. So I am doing my part to propogate this:

http://www.pewtershipper.com/onlinemoneymaking/index.php?6118823848385238=03kanuwy

In any case, the whole hse is in a mess, and working the hrs tt I do, I m not particularly interested in helping to clean up the hse when I am hm during the weekend. Thus, my soln is to close the door to my room whenever pple visit us. =)

Started watching My Girl this weekend. At last count, I hv completed only 2 episodes. BUT I am alr hooked on the show. I really like the female lead! Let me finish the show b4 I continue recommending the show to others. It does help tt the male lead is also pretty shuai! I hope I hv the time to watch at least 1-2 episodes a weeknite...praying tt work wun take up too much time tis week!

Went KTV today. Lotsa new songs, had fun as usual blasting out the songs. KTV is really great to release pent-up stress and tension! Who cares!! Yay!! Mental therapy...=)

I hope next Sat arrives as quickly as possible! 5 workdaes to go...

'If something is worth doing, it's worth doing it well.' Words of Wisdom from SimpleGirl. Can't believe I am actually quoting her, but yes, I should make more of an attempt to understand my work better, know my colleagues well, instead of telling myself that everything is too difficult for me.

Coupled with today's sermon, I know that I can't let this difficulty stop me in my tracks. God has a purpose for everyone of us, and my gift is in deciphering numbers (at least I hope my gift is in deciphering numbers).

I believe I can do this. Mayb I m expecting too much from myself. After all, it has only been around 2mths. I will continue striving to do my very best and being my normal self at work. I hv faith tt things will work out w His grace. =)

I know I shldn't feel this way. Unfortunately, I feel inadequate. It has been a long long while since I had this sort of mood hit me (no, it's not PMS). I wonder what's wrong...it seems tt nothing I do is ever gd enuff. I m not as quick as I will like myself to be, as likeable as I want to believe I am, as happy as I try to project myself to be.

Is work stress getting to me? The numbers r really mind-boggling and the concepts/ terminology used abstract to say the least.

I dun hv as much free time as I prefer, not as healthy as I want to be, not as trendy/ mature as I shld b etc. Everything just sorta stacks up, and *bang* I hv fallen into such a mood. I shldn't...I shld pray more. But I dun wanna bcum a person who only seeks God whenever I need help.

Contradiction..life is really a web of contradictions. I hope I will get over this asap. I just wanna regain my footing/ comfort at work, peace in my heart and happiness in life.

Your Existing Situation
Seeks to share a bond of understanding intimacy in an esthetic atmosphere of peace and tenderness.

Your Stress Sources
The existing situation is disagreeable. Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Insists that her goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner.
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.

Your Desired Objective
Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature, whether erotically stimulating or otherwise. Wants to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality with an altogether charming and impressive influence on others. Uses tactics skillfully so as to avoid endangering her chances of success or undermining others' confidence in herself.

Your Actual Problem
Takes a delight in action and wants to be respected and esteemed for her personal accomplishments.

Your Actual Problem #2
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

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Well, what can I say...life has been entertaining at home after broadband. Suddenly, I am conversing so much with frens again.

The above aside, today has been a bad day for me. I accidentally copied and subsequently deleted the wrong folder from the shared server. No recycle cin to retrieve the file from. I even begged the IT personnel to help, but to no avail, cos the files have been destroyed forever. Security issues aside, I wonder how can it be safer for me to use desktop to save my stuff, rather than the shared server.

Putting aside the prospect of redoing everything again, let me update all of you with abit of gossip. I bumped into HS and P at Bugis today. They tried to be discreet n all, but unfortunately, I saw them! They also saw us though..so I was like, 'u dun say, we also dun say.' Haha...but I wonder y is this on my blog then...kekek...

I also bumped into my choir mate, who was w a gal (who isn't his gf!)!! Okok, it's his coll, but oh well, what is life without alittle gossip? ;) Today seems to be a day to meet pple, cos I saw a choir senior outside the mrt train as well, and when I reached my stn, I met this guy who was in my GE team last year.

Rite, this is the end of my bo liao Tue update! =)

Aniwae, work's been tough. Act, to be more exact, it's alternating btw ok and tough. Some nites, I can leave around 6+pm, while other nites, I leave as late as 9pm. Slowly but surely learning things, but it may b a sign of my age tt I find learning abit slower. Either tt, or insurance concepts r just plain hard to understand.

Unfortunately, 1 fren seems to hv faltered at the interview stage. I am disappointed, cos it will hv made things so much easier, but I guess I hv no choice in this matter. I can only pray tt somehow things will turn out alright. For those of you who r keen on the job, pls send me yr resume asap k...u will be doing yrself n me a BIG favour! =)

Things hv fallen to a routine of sorts lately.