Sunday, December 31, 2006
Happy New Year!
Since my last post, my parents have returned to Singapore and boy, am I glad! The last week has really given me a taste of how it is to live alone (although technically, my sis was at hm w me). As 2006 comes to a close and 2007 arrives in around 8hrs, it has brought closer to mind the fact that as we grow older, our parents are also ageing.
I know that in the past year, I hv been pretty bad-tempered on several occassions with them. I know that I hv not been speaking to them heart-to-heart as much as I need to. And often my excuse is that they simply dun understand. All this may be true, but to bring me up to be the person that I am can't be an easy task. Hence, 1 resolution for the new year (that is hopefully achievable) is to speak in a normal tone to them as much as possible. Hopefully, I will be able to maintain patience, while I hope to seek their understanding in watever decisions that hv been or will be made. I am and always will be the daughter that they have brought up, and I just wish to obtain their approval in all things that I do.
As I grow older, I am beginning to see more clearly that everyone of us has a route, a destiny meant for each of us. In the past, I will wonder why can't I take on that envied route as well, but right here and now, I understand that though it may be true that all of us are embarking on different routes, there is a different destiny meant for each of us. And all these different routes are good in their own rights. There is no need for comparison, jealousy or to rue my fate, for He has created each of us to be different and we all hv our own purpose in life to carry out. My 2nd resolution for 2007 is thus, to find and discover my purpose in life.
Amidst the events of 2006 unfolding in my life, I am glad to acknowledge that I did not allow failures to get me down for long, albeit with help and support from frens and family. I hv been told many times that I always need to win. I agree with this assessment and perhaps it is due to this characteristic of mine that has caused several fallouts cos I just plain dun apologise. My 3rd resolution is therefore to admit when I am wrong and to apologise when needed. I also hope to gain wisdom that winning isn't everything. The process of getting there is more imp. Tenacity without character is nothing. I shld admit when I am wrong, and pull myself up and strive at it till I succeed. Glory comes to those who persevere despite failures. I want to be a person who doesn't give up in the face of failure, rather than be known to be a person who must win at all costs.
As I try to become a better person, I believe that other things will come naturally. My last resolution is to let go of all my emotional baggage. Those who have wronged me, those who have forsaken me, those whom I feel guilty towards, those whom I shld hv treated better, those whom I am thankful to but never did hv the chance to say thanks to...all these shall be forgotten, forgiven, of myself, of others. Starting the new year on a clean slab. Hopefully, I am given the opportunity to become a better person, while retaining my distinctive character. =).
On a more light-hearted note, I wish that in the year 2007, everyone will have more free time (did I mention that I work till 8pm on average in the past week? N I will be gg back to work on consecutive Sats in the mth of Jan?). I want to be able to spend time with people whom I care for. I want to hv time to use the broadband that I just signed up for (finally! Installing on 13 Jan!) I also wish that everyone will hv enough disposable cash on hand to do watever they want to, within reasonable limits. I wish that the Singapore economy will continue to do well, so that all of us can get bigger bonuses and pay rise next year. I wish that everyone's wishes (big or small) will get fulfilled, although everyone must work hard for what they want.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! God Bless All of Us!
Belief in Life wrote @ 4:55 PM 0 comments
