Wednesday, December 27, 2006

2006 - A year of Learning and Growth

My parents r out of town for around 1.5wks, and their absence has shown me starkly how dependent I am upon them in my daily life. No ride to the mrt in the morn, after work or when I go out; no lunch/dinner at hm waiting for me whenever I am hm. Extra walking to do. Extra locking/unlocking + other misc hsehold tasks to complete. Waking up earlier to factor in time for walking, esp with the current rainy weather. This has made me more physically tired than usual. But I am definitely exercising more. =)

Only good is I hv much more freedom to do whatever I want and to stay out late. No one to call me to ask where I am. No one to hurry me hm. No one to badger me to cum hm to rest, if not I will age faster. It's independence and liberation tt I shld use wisely. Perhaps it has been long in coming, since I am after all 24 going onto 25yrs old soon. That's a quarter century old, and I shld b mature enuff to answer for my own actions (and lack of sleep).

It may be the rainy weather, as well as the festive season, along with the impending closure of 2006 + a result of my parents not being in Singapore. But it's timely now to bring a closure to the myraid of feelings in my heart, just a week away from the end of 2006.

This has indeed been an eventful year. Reading my entries on what I wanted to achieve this yr, I must say that much was achieved, but I hv lost a certain innocence in the past yr. Most memorably, I have acknowleged Him as saviour in my life, after gg thru a rough (to me, at least) patch in my life. Indeed, it is often when we hit rock bottom tt we find the only way out is upwards.

Things are looking more than fine right now. I am blissfully living my life now, w minimal worries. Things can always be better, but hey, I shld not be complaining. I hv learnt to let things go and fate takes its own course. I hv stopped biting my nails (albeit with help from the anti-nail biting polish. Not due to mental strength.) => used a nailclipper on my fingernails for the 1st time. Looking fwd to gg for my 1st manicure in due course.

Indeed, in the year of 2006, new frens hv been found, some frenships strengthened, while much to my regret, some old frens lost but not forgotten. I hope I hv developed to become a better person thru the different trials and experiences life hv dealt upon me in the past yr.

Milestones:
1. Went for 3-day Outward Bound leadership course - Wanted to give up on the 1st day. Managed to persist only due to understanding colls there w me, as well as timely advice from frens.
2. Overcame inner demons which persisted in telling me how ill-fated I am and to indulge in self-pity
3. Learnt to manage staff and human relationships better, and this includes interaction with older subordinates.
4. Acknowledged how lucky I am to live the life I am living, as compared to the greater population out there
5. Found Him
6. Changed a new job with better prospect and pay, but in the process, kissing my yr-end bonus goodbye
7. Completed many physical tasks, e.g. Changi chalet walk, Treetop Walk

I shall end with a video of blessings for all my faithful readers through the last 1.5 yrs or so: http://www.mayyoubeblessedmovie.com/

"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way"

Stay tuned for next wk's New Year Resolutions and what I hope to achieve in the coming year ahead.