Sunday, December 31, 2006
Happy New Year!
I know that in the past year, I hv been pretty bad-tempered on several occassions with them. I know that I hv not been speaking to them heart-to-heart as much as I need to. And often my excuse is that they simply dun understand. All this may be true, but to bring me up to be the person that I am can't be an easy task. Hence, 1 resolution for the new year (that is hopefully achievable) is to speak in a normal tone to them as much as possible. Hopefully, I will be able to maintain patience, while I hope to seek their understanding in watever decisions that hv been or will be made. I am and always will be the daughter that they have brought up, and I just wish to obtain their approval in all things that I do.
As I grow older, I am beginning to see more clearly that everyone of us has a route, a destiny meant for each of us. In the past, I will wonder why can't I take on that envied route as well, but right here and now, I understand that though it may be true that all of us are embarking on different routes, there is a different destiny meant for each of us. And all these different routes are good in their own rights. There is no need for comparison, jealousy or to rue my fate, for He has created each of us to be different and we all hv our own purpose in life to carry out. My 2nd resolution for 2007 is thus, to find and discover my purpose in life.
Amidst the events of 2006 unfolding in my life, I am glad to acknowledge that I did not allow failures to get me down for long, albeit with help and support from frens and family. I hv been told many times that I always need to win. I agree with this assessment and perhaps it is due to this characteristic of mine that has caused several fallouts cos I just plain dun apologise. My 3rd resolution is therefore to admit when I am wrong and to apologise when needed. I also hope to gain wisdom that winning isn't everything. The process of getting there is more imp. Tenacity without character is nothing. I shld admit when I am wrong, and pull myself up and strive at it till I succeed. Glory comes to those who persevere despite failures. I want to be a person who doesn't give up in the face of failure, rather than be known to be a person who must win at all costs.
As I try to become a better person, I believe that other things will come naturally. My last resolution is to let go of all my emotional baggage. Those who have wronged me, those who have forsaken me, those whom I feel guilty towards, those whom I shld hv treated better, those whom I am thankful to but never did hv the chance to say thanks to...all these shall be forgotten, forgiven, of myself, of others. Starting the new year on a clean slab. Hopefully, I am given the opportunity to become a better person, while retaining my distinctive character. =).
On a more light-hearted note, I wish that in the year 2007, everyone will have more free time (did I mention that I work till 8pm on average in the past week? N I will be gg back to work on consecutive Sats in the mth of Jan?). I want to be able to spend time with people whom I care for. I want to hv time to use the broadband that I just signed up for (finally! Installing on 13 Jan!) I also wish that everyone will hv enough disposable cash on hand to do watever they want to, within reasonable limits. I wish that the Singapore economy will continue to do well, so that all of us can get bigger bonuses and pay rise next year. I wish that everyone's wishes (big or small) will get fulfilled, although everyone must work hard for what they want.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! God Bless All of Us!
Belief in Life wrote @ 4:55 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
2006 - A year of Learning and Growth
My parents r out of town for around 1.5wks, and their absence has shown me starkly how dependent I am upon them in my daily life. No ride to the mrt in the morn, after work or when I go out; no lunch/dinner at hm waiting for me whenever I am hm. Extra walking to do. Extra locking/unlocking + other misc hsehold tasks to complete. Waking up earlier to factor in time for walking, esp with the current rainy weather. This has made me more physically tired than usual. But I am definitely exercising more. =)
Only good is I hv much more freedom to do whatever I want and to stay out late. No one to call me to ask where I am. No one to hurry me hm. No one to badger me to cum hm to rest, if not I will age faster. It's independence and liberation tt I shld use wisely. Perhaps it has been long in coming, since I am after all 24 going onto 25yrs old soon. That's a quarter century old, and I shld b mature enuff to answer for my own actions (and lack of sleep).
It may be the rainy weather, as well as the festive season, along with the impending closure of 2006 + a result of my parents not being in Singapore. But it's timely now to bring a closure to the myraid of feelings in my heart, just a week away from the end of 2006.
This has indeed been an eventful year. Reading my entries on what I wanted to achieve this yr, I must say that much was achieved, but I hv lost a certain innocence in the past yr. Most memorably, I have acknowleged Him as saviour in my life, after gg thru a rough (to me, at least) patch in my life. Indeed, it is often when we hit rock bottom tt we find the only way out is upwards.
Things are looking more than fine right now. I am blissfully living my life now, w minimal worries. Things can always be better, but hey, I shld not be complaining. I hv learnt to let things go and fate takes its own course. I hv stopped biting my nails (albeit with help from the anti-nail biting polish. Not due to mental strength.) => used a nailclipper on my fingernails for the 1st time. Looking fwd to gg for my 1st manicure in due course.
Indeed, in the year of 2006, new frens hv been found, some frenships strengthened, while much to my regret, some old frens lost but not forgotten. I hope I hv developed to become a better person thru the different trials and experiences life hv dealt upon me in the past yr.
Milestones:
1. Went for 3-day Outward Bound leadership course - Wanted to give up on the 1st day. Managed to persist only due to understanding colls there w me, as well as timely advice from frens.
2. Overcame inner demons which persisted in telling me how ill-fated I am and to indulge in self-pity
3. Learnt to manage staff and human relationships better, and this includes interaction with older subordinates.
4. Acknowledged how lucky I am to live the life I am living, as compared to the greater population out there
5. Found Him
6. Changed a new job with better prospect and pay, but in the process, kissing my yr-end bonus goodbye
7. Completed many physical tasks, e.g. Changi chalet walk, Treetop Walk
I shall end with a video of blessings for all my faithful readers through the last 1.5 yrs or so: http://www.mayyoubeblessedmovie.com/
"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way"
Stay tuned for next wk's New Year Resolutions and what I hope to achieve in the coming year ahead.
Belief in Life wrote @ 12:05 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Christmas is over, and I feel a sense of loss.
I hv became jaded with bad experiences
Heart clouded with despair
Mourning lost hope and innocence
Over the years
If only life can be simpler
Or humans easier beings to understand
Say what we mean
And do what it takes
To achieve a single aim
No conflicting desires
Nothing to prove
Society acceptance a given
Taking comfort in who I am
Open to differences
Happiness defined by myself
True love and trust
Felt despite the odds
Warmth in the marketplace
Hope on earth, Joy within
Thankful to Him
Belief in Life wrote @ 9:37 PM 0 comments
Monday, December 18, 2006
2 Movies Within a Day!
Tis weekend has really been a record of sorts for me. 1st time in my life that I caught 2 movies within a day, make that 5 hrs! Amazing, rite? Act, it's no choice, cos we didn't want to waste the free tkt that will expire by 28 Dec. Can only be used from Sun-Thurs and Fri b4 5pm, excluding eves of and public hols. Since I didn't want to catch a movie after work, we die die had to catch a movie yesterday. And since so many shows were just released, there were few available 'free list' movies for us to choose from. -_- But free, so don't complain.
1st movie - Eragon. I like it! Picture-perfect and it helps tt the lead is pretty shuai. I just like those LOTR, Narnia kind of shows lah...=) But yes, do catch it if u hvn't yet!
2nd movie - The Nativity Story. Surprisingly, this show is pretty good too. That is, if u aren't against watching a biblical movie. Personally, I felt it was alright, although non-Christians may beg to differ.
Beginning to feel the Christmas mood! Bought gifts, gift-wrapped mei mei, and yes, definitely looking forward to the long weekend!! 4 more days!
Belief in Life wrote @ 8:56 PM 0 comments
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Conquering Treetop Walk
Wonders never cease. Despite having less than 8hrs of sleep (little by weekends' standard), we made our way to MacRitchie Reservoir to embark on our journey to the top of the trees.
Frankly speaking, I didn't expect the walk to be that tough. The terrain ranged from rocky to muddy to easier ones of wooden planks and simply granite road. But the gradient of the climb at certain areas was tougher than my poor body could handle.
It was actually raining at 1st, but somehow the sky just cleared and even though, it looked threateningly dark at certain parts of the forest, the weather on the whole was just perfect for walking. If it was any hotter, I will hv been one grumpy gal. And thus, we started off happily, looking at the greenery around us and the little stream of water merrily flowing by. It was a really different experience from anything that I ever experienced in Singapore.
In comparison to Bukit Timah Hill, Sungei Buloh or even the Changi Boardwalk, the level of difficulty here is really the highest (at least to me). Even as I am typing this, the muscles in my legs are just protesting to any sudden big movement that my body may make while typing. =)
Oh yah, interesting observations: There was a plant with leaves that felt exactly like velvet! Pretty cool, wanted to pluck one for remembrance, but rem that we were supposed to conserve nature, so I didn't in the end. Also saw some tree of which the fruit is used to make the jelly in cheng tng. Saw squirrels, monkeys (with babies being carried by the mother monkey), blue, yellow, polka-dotted butterflies, dragonflies...Saw many empty rifle bullets from the nearby rifle range too.
One other observation: we met many ang mohs along the way and they were so frenly, acknowledging us, asking how's our day. Some even brought their young kids of around 3-4yrs old along. In comparison, we saw only 1 Singapore family with kids in tow. I think it's pretty sad that we Singaporeans don't appreciate nature and the great outdoors as much as these foreigners. It wun even be particularly sunny, cos the trees will provide reprieve from the sun.
I remembered when I was in Canada, there were many of such trails as well and the locals there all actively visited the trails while admiring the sights along the way. And this one, right here in our homeland, is so well-maintained, yet so unvisited. It's really a great pity that not enough Singaporeans visit the treetop walk. I will strongly encourage everyone to go at least once. It's really one of the greatest places in Singapore, that's not the usual shopping centre etc. Coming from me, this statement is really a big deal, cos everyone noes I am not such a great nature lover.
So pls do go visit the treetop walk, especially if you want a taste of sth off the beaten track, which doesn't require travelling out of Singapore!
Belief in Life wrote @ 10:09 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Reading your Fortune
http://www.superfate.com.tw/channel_fortune/index.php Of cos, other than the food, the more imp thing was the company. There were alot of pple tt I hvn't really seen or tokked to for a long time. It felt comforting to be sitting in Spinkypinkie's hse again, just like in the past. Although many of us hv started working and may hv drifted apart, the fact tt we can still gather and just catch up really makes me smile. Thankfully, we hv Christmas/ New Year to look forward to...=)
This website is pretty accurate! Be forewarned that you will need to have yr birth time ready and be prepared to read lotsa Chinese characters.
Ok, I'm classified as 白雲命 ...a synopsis:
聰明有才華，學習能力強，觀察敏銳，喜歡探究事物背後的道理，思路清晰，有獨具一格的判斷與分析能力，但是缺乏執行力與行動力。
白雲隨風飄流，一下飄到這邊，一下又飛到天邊，因此您的思路十分活躍，一下想做這個，一下想做那個，想像力豐富，但是缺乏持續力，容易流於空談。
Translation - Smart and capable. Observant and analytical. Thinks from a different angle and is imaginative, but lacks the drive to make changes materialise. Hence, may result in it being all talk with no action.
能夠以不同的角色來適應週遭的環境，不論多惡劣，您也能漸漸適應，進而改變環境。您對於環境的變動有很強的適應力，所以容易給人表裡不一的觀感，但其實是一般人不容易想像您的思維模式。
Translation - Adaptable to all situations, no matter how bad they may be. Mindset and thinking not easily understood by others.
喜歡平易近人，親切友善的人，不喜歡油嘴滑舌，虛情假意的人，而能讓您佩服的人，多半是成熟穩重，誠懇踏實的人。
Translation - Loves honest and caring people. Dislikes fake and gilb talkers. Those who can earn my respect are usually the mature, honest and down-to-earth types.
屬於比較隨性的類型，凡事方便就好，因此不會很注重居住空間以及工作環境的品質。
Translation - Convenience is my top priority. I won't focus on my living or working conditions.
做事情也比較心急，缺乏耐心，所以您與其他人相處的關係並不是那麼的融洽，也缺少貴人的提攜
Translation - Very impatient. This may cause my relationships with others to be strained, and I will not easily get people's help.
不論在哪一個行業中發展，大部分都需要靠腦力，從事一些思考導向的工作。但是世界上跟您一樣聰明的人很多，唯有加上經驗的累積才有無可取代的價值。
Translation - I shld use my brain at work!! And experience is key to being better than the rest! =)
Go try it out!
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
My 100th Post on this Blog!
With yet again another change of job, I realised that I may hv many grps of ex-colls to meet up with. =) Anyway, met up w my ex-colls from my 1st company (I am on Job No. 3 now by the way) on Fri. As usual, we were gossiping and tokking about work. Well, I discovered that some pple do read my blog faithfully and act rem the details despite my blog being branded 'bo liao'. Haha...
We also touched on the more serious topic of whether we r happy. Very simply put, even with all the money that we earned + a gd family + a gd job (though we may need to work late) + living in a safe and clean country, we may not be happy still. This is despite us hving an aim/goal in life. To be happy is a choice, not sth tt u r supposed to work towards to. After all, even when one has attained watever goal we hv set our mind on, will we then find ourselves in a state of emptiness again? Hence, our conclusion for the evening is internal fulfilment and happiness are actually decided internally. If we want to be unhappy, we will still fail to see watever gd that is happening in our lives.
I was also inculcating the art of writing a blog to a fren. So this is for him! See, I can write such long paras on our outing! U shld start one too...u will discover that u hv things to write about, despite how boring yr life may be! U can gripe about how irritating crying children are, and how u wish to slap them whenever they cry. =P
Met up with the choir clique today. Surprise surprise, I was the earliest, despite me being late for an hr! This just shows how much we keep time. This outing was held in honour of XY who has returned from HK for her sis's wedding. Happy to say that XY looks better and happier 3 mths into her new job. Living alone sounds fun and yet dangerous at times. Once again, it has reminded me of how dependent I am on my family in Singapore. I wonder if I can survive on my own out there if I really hv to.
Rite, as usual, Spinkypinkie and her family were very hospitable. We started off making Oreo milkshake when Veelo and XY arrived. It amazes me that we really used up 1 tub of 1litre vanilla ice-cream, 2 cartons of milk (2 x 1litre) and 30 pieces of Oreo cookie. Totally sinful! But I luv every moment of it. In any case, I hv discovered that my usefulness lies only in washing the dishes cos I relaly hv no idea wat to do when it comes to blending, cooking etc. For dinner, there were chicken wings as usual, a very fragrant lemon grass chicken dish + vegetarian bee hoon. After tt feast, we continued w chocolate fondue w lotsa fruits. I was really full...
Belief in Life wrote @ 12:33 AM 0 comments
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Net Access is UP!
My net access is finally up! Bad news is I can't even access webmail, much less MSN...Good news - Blogspot isn't blocked (as yet), so I can still read blogs!
In any case, with the current situation, I very much doubt that I will be checking my email daily at home. So friends and people out there, if u all want to find/book me, pls contact me via hp. Dun wait for an email reply, cos I am not sure how frequent my checks will be.
Belief in Life wrote @ 9:39 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Midweek Update
I am very much alive and kicking! Though my net access at work is still not up yet, which means no msn, email checking or blog writing. (Btw, alot of time is saved by not msning..)I hv gotten my access card today! However, due to IT malfunctioning, my pic didn't print out right, so I hv got an empty card with no face on it. Haha...
Seems like all my worry was over nothing. So far, everything is gd. I am learning new things everyday and yes, they aren't easy. But I don't think I am particularly slow. Think I just have to get used to things. However, I sorta hv the flu bug now. Imagine..1 whole year at my ex-workplace and never been sick. Join new company, sick within 1 week. Bad impression..blowing my nose all the time, but still manage to do without a MC. I recall that this was what happened when I joined my previous company too. Sick within the 1st week. Maybe my body needs to acclimatize to the new environment.
Met up w Banana and his fren for lunch today. Had such a gd time just being my normal childish self. =) Quite difficult putting on a false front all the time, u noe..but bo pian, the situation calls for it. Besides, it's time tt I shld mature.
Ok, further updates over the weekend, if anything interesting happens. =) Stay tuned.
Belief in Life wrote @ 10:57 PM 0 comments
Monday, December 04, 2006
2nd Day at Work
As all of you can tell from my previous post, I hv been giving myself alot of pressure cos of my new job. I still am, but the 2nd day has passed in a flash. I think I can do this! =)
Aniwae, it's gd that the present co is using the same accounting system as my previous one. Surprise surprise! And it's also gd tt my colls seemed to be all nice pple. Didn't hv much time to interact with them (and I think I never will) cos everyone is simply too busy. My eyesight will definitely deteroriate cos so many reports! But it's to be expected since I can't be getting paid to do nothing.
Ok, to sidetrack, let me tok about my wkend. There's this great offer gg on at Escape Themepark, cos they are celebrating their 6th Anniversary. This means that admission tickets are at $6 each only and to top it all, there's also a FREE carnival game + FREE popcorn + FREE ice cream! I took part in the Spin a Wheel game and won 1ST PRIZE!!! Never been so lucky before..hahah...
Caught Flags of Our Father on Sun. Quite a gruesome show and it should appeal to the guys more. So many ang mohs watching lor...
1 last thing. Not sure how many of my ex-colls will be reading this, but THANK YOU SO MUCH for the thot and effort put into writing the farewell card as well as purchase the gift. Seriously, didn't expect so many of you to share in the gifts n all. Once again, I feel so luved, but well, people need to move on. Whatever it is, I will definitely remember all of you as we have worked as a team before. Thanks for the encouragement and thotful words!
Belief in Life wrote @ 10:37 PM 0 comments
Sunday, December 03, 2006
1st Day at Work
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