Sunday, July 09, 2006
Is it me or them at fault?
I have been scolded, bruised, wounded in verbal battles that took place over the past month or so. Makes me wonder if the guys aren't at fault, it must surely mean that my character leaves much to be desired.
I realised that most of the time, I am not even arguing with the guys over matters that deeply concern me, safe that my opinion stem from my passion/duty towards others. Perhaps I am too obstinate in my thinking, which is why received a backlash.
I may be too strong-headed. But did it necessitate the anger and personal criticism? I shld change myself..but how can I, when I am not even convinced of the 'wrong' I have committed?
If I insist tt I am right, how can the world be wrong? A communication breakdown maybe? Or a typical case of women are from venus and men from mars?
I don't want to be a woman with opinions or to be seen as strong in thinking, cos I am surely not. Every single word is a blow to me and pardon me if I read too much into each word. My ego and portrayal of myself will be my downfall. I shld just be a weak and meek woman, but that just wouldn't be me. But what kind of woman am I really?
I realised that most of the time, I am not even arguing with the guys over matters that deeply concern me, safe that my opinion stem from my passion/duty towards others. Perhaps I am too obstinate in my thinking, which is why received a backlash.
I may be too strong-headed. But did it necessitate the anger and personal criticism? I shld change myself..but how can I, when I am not even convinced of the 'wrong' I have committed?
If I insist tt I am right, how can the world be wrong? A communication breakdown maybe? Or a typical case of women are from venus and men from mars?
I don't want to be a woman with opinions or to be seen as strong in thinking, cos I am surely not. Every single word is a blow to me and pardon me if I read too much into each word. My ego and portrayal of myself will be my downfall. I shld just be a weak and meek woman, but that just wouldn't be me. But what kind of woman am I really?
Belief in Life wrote @ 11:17 PM 0 comments
